OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOh I luv ur dress! it kinda reminds me of mine! mine was a purple twilight with the poofyness on the bottom too!!! lol i felt like cinderella! haha did u have fun? i did =]

...how come all great creativity takes place in a history class?lol u ever noticed that?

PeaCe.

-peyton.<3

i looooooove your dress :)
xDDDDD
&& your poem=amazinggg.

rreemmeemmbbeerr wwhheenn wwee uusseedd ttoo ddoouubbllee eevveerryy lleetttteerr??
[remember when we used to double every letter?]

&& btw, thanks for the skinny compliment!
XDDDD

i looooooooooooooove you.

amy.

omggg!! that is a gorgeous dress! <3 i bet you'll look amazing at prom. :] i hope you have funnn!! and i loveeee the poem too, it's beautiful<3

&&ahh yeah, they're all mad and they think i'm hanging out with people too much lately...idk. it's not like we do a lot together anyway or go out places together....my family's weird. :P and ahahaha, yessss, i love him<3 yay, i'm not the only one who thinks so!! xD seriously though, everyone else around here thinks he looks weird, but i think he's insanely attractive. lmao. thanks for the commentttt. :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<3333

hey, thanks for the comment on the poem. =]
you're dress [+you] is beautiful as always.
and the poem is really good.

<3.. to you. from me.

I cant dignify the question about today's entry with an answer because I hate her so bad.
Which pretty much does answer the question I guess.
Cyst=Carmen. :(((

Friend that I like/wanna try to get with? No not a Senior...shocking I know, considering I've dated or been friends with...if not both...so many of them. Or at least know.

Dated or had a crush on when they were a good friend: matt dodd, donovan, john, jeremy, ethan, stubby.

Friends: You.

Just know: Ashley, Kathleen, Jennifer, Dean, Trel, Brandon.

Prolly some others.
Class of '08=<3. i WILL miss yall.

I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much.

have i ever told you that i think you are like oober pretty?
well i am right now. =]

you and zeb are adorable., i'm just waiting for the day i find the love that you 2 share.
does he even have his eye in, in numero 3?

<3 to you. -me

Aw I love these pictures.  And I love your outfit.  You have great style.

AND don't ever say you are fat because you are looking skinny!

Zeb's lack of fake eye scares me sometimes haha.

coolness=]]

ha. i get like that [not wanting to be online] when im on too often. lol [[its kind of like overdosing on internet.haha. like getting too much crack, you start feeling sick. and dont wanna go near it for a while. yeah thats it. lol.]]but lately i was missing it. spring break i think will give me that lift tho =] parents are being a drag with me too. that most of my reasons for wanting internet again. things are just so retarded with them. ..im about to write about them too. cuz that just  brings up other mess ive been going thru since my time away from MDD..hah. well take care girlie!

those pix are pretty! i like that hair and that style too. lol i wish i could pull it off. i prolly could too if i was a size ...0? lol

Gah, totally cute clothes!!!
The thing about the french horns is actually pretty funny.
&& i'm glad i'm not sick.
I'm a little down again but not ill.

You arent fat!! && you're pretty!

new diary name posted.
:] add me.

Awww thats sad, but good! Crying is awesome therapy! But yeah good luck with that lol  

GORGEOUS pics!!!! Love the third second and fourth one! Soo cute!

It sounds like Zeb just cracked!

OMG.  Are you actually smiling in two of those??  Yay!  You look so much different when you smile.  You are always beautiful.

awe, honey, i'm soso sorry. that's terrible. :[[ i'm not too good with advice, so i can't help you much, but i know how you feel when he scared you into thinking he was going to break up with you...i've had that happen to me so many times. i know exactly how you feel. it's terrible. D: anyway, i really really hope things get better for you soon, && i'm sorry i don't really have any advice to give. stay strong<3

&&ahaha, yeah, it's pretty nice, though it's pretty cold out so i can't do much. :P and lmao, thanks. :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

Couple things.. Zeb calls other girls hot, but do you not call other guys hot? And why dont you just ask him for his honest opinion on if you are attractive. I mean, you are and you should know that without him even saying it. I am sure you are to him cause he is with you. :)

JohnB.

Ohmyf***inghell.
Girl, this is awesome.
Not even awesome,
It's the sort of writing
Even I can't describe.

Well done =D
Love it, Bec.

WOWZERS!

THAT WAS AWESOME!

that was long yes ,
but completely amazing .
keep writing girl , you keep getting better
with each poem . I love how well you can rhyme ,
and honestly , i wish i had that talent .

" If she compared herself to black, he'd know gray "

that was by far my favourite part . well said .

yess, it was a blast ! :]

awe, thank youuu. :DD

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

awe, i get the same way sometimes too, but like someone else said:: don't let what others think stop you from wearing what you want to wear. you are your own person and beautiful in your own way. :]

&&awe, yeah...lol. it's gonna suck. ergghh... D: and thanks !

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

thanks for the advice!! yeah, i'm worried that marc might be one of those guys, but idk...he's a really sweet and thoughtful guy, but who knows. if he tries to do anything at the dance i'll be sure to tell him no. thanks! :]

&&awe, thanks<3 haha, yeah, our school has a lot of random dances. like this one and the black-and-white dance, where everyone wears black and/or white and you can sit around playing cards and such...i have no idea why we have them, but we do. xD

ahh, yeah, i would do...unfortunately my mom's not letting me use my computer starting monday because i was two points away from getting all Bs on my report card... D: ughh. she says as soon as i get a 90 on something that was graded in the class i did bad in she'll let me use it again, so hopefully that's soon...

ohh, that was a long comment. sorry. lol. anyway, thanks for the comment && everything ! :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

awee, you two are so cute ! :]

&&yeahh...seems like it's a guy thing. : ughh...thanks for the comment though. :]

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

danny has to do work too ,
and his mom is on the phone with
my dad , so we cant talk. And I hate it.
Loneliness sucks .

i love your hair ,
and you and Zeb are pretty adorable :]

I love when you write happy poems .
It doesn't happen often .
And thanks for the comments on my
last entry . It made a lot . :]

Adorable hair. I really love it. 

You and Zeb are the cutest couple.  Unlike most of the other couple pics, I feel like I can almost feel how much you guys love each other just by looking at you two.  It's amazing.

I'm glad you got to spend time with each other.  Yay!

awww. i adore that poem!  its so beautiful. i barely realized i was crying. lol. i hope to have what u do w/ ur bf one day...from ur pics, u guys look so happy. hehe. im happy for u!

&& your new hair do is pretty! =P

take care. 

Peyton.<3

Plugs are like ear rings! like this

 It goes through your ear but your hole has to be streched to get them

  the thing in her ear is a plug and they come in all sizes! (thats not me, just some pic I got off of google)

I seriously dislike basketball.  I think it is one of the most boring sports there is.

Zeb would be so crushed if you killed yourself.  So even if he seems like your only reason to live...just remember that one reason is more than enough to not do it.

A Little Piece of Heaven is probably the most messed up song I've ever heard.  But I am seriously in love with it.

well good luck on ur essay

[reply to ur comment:] yup & i luv my A schedule ...lol

...hah, stoopid buzzers. lol i dont go to basketball games but if i did, id proly hate them just as much. i jump easily, or flinch w/ loud noises...and the buzzing would prolly be one of them.

so Beowulf, eh? do u like it? we read that last semester, and had to take a final on it w/in just 4 days of only getting to actualy read it. man, i bombed that. ah! stooopid Beowulf. Dumb anglo-saxen! lol. mrs.rowe [my old ap english teacher] is brilliant. but man...i hated it when she assigned us to read that book.

...i dont talk about it much either. but i get that way to. i havent lately. which im glad, but when i did...yeah i knew i just couldnt b/c of my friend laura, juana...and well all my other buddies & family...im glad i have those guys. =]

well i hope u do awesome @ the show! that sounds pretty cool "Battle of the bands" i have friends that do that type of stuff...theyve invited me a couple times to go and watch em' play but i nvr get to go. lousy job...=[

well take care!

& thanx for ur comments. they made me smile. espeically the 1 w/ what i said about SkiLLz and the memory. hah.

=Peyton. <3

Well you can hang out with me. Yes I drive, so what? we can go wherever ya want. :D And yeah, killing yourself would affect a lot of people. You are important to more people than you know. Or let yourself know I think is the case. Battle of the Bands eh? Cool. And who was the teacher? And you got to do Beowulf? lol. Sorry, i remember doing that. Jess was beowulf and CJ was.... I think the evil mother thing.. Cant remember.

JohnB

Hey, guess what?? I'm baaaaaaaaaacccckkkk. I am done getting rid of things because of girls with nothing better to do than destroy a guy's life. I guess I need to avoid girls that start with the letter A. A stands for a**h***. Haha. Anyway, I am glad you miss junior year. The whole almost dying thing kinda ruined it for me. But why be scared to graduate? You got intelligence up the ass and are as capable or more than anyone in our class to do something with your life. And you hate emotions, but what makes you human are emotions themselves. Not saying to like them, but simply respect them for what they are. They can move mountains and change the world. I am glad your grades are good and sorry about Zeb. Must have done something not too great. And have you been a good friend? Well I barely see you so no clue on that one. Girlfriend... I am hoping I dont know the answer to that one. Ally is confusing? NO sh*t. Thats how she exists. Deception. Afraid to show anyone the real her. Even her boytoy. Kinda sad. Anyway, add me to your favorites. Making a entry today. Love ya sis.

JohnB

I miss Junior year too...and I'm out of high school! haha
It was just the greatest year.
I am thinking that our school has really cheap prom tickets.
11th grade they were 15.  12th they were 25.

thankyou<3 yess, it was a blast. :] thanks for the comment !

tellmexwherexarexyou<333

i hear u on the "long semester" part

u may b right

thanx 4 the comment

Haha your right trains do kick ass and the next time I see preps I'll tell them about the tanning LOL Sorry about the anorexic thing failing but hey I started off like that but I guess you have to want it bad enough! Its never too late to give it another try! Watch this video and think about it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lA-QQSsULQ 

 Adding you to my favs don't be shy to read my diary! I'll always return the favor!

ur in band? thats cool =P

well i hope ur friend does well so he can see u again soon! =]

good luck teaching!

hmm...i dont think ur really manipulative...i mean..it doesnt rly seem like it. u just telling him u dont like something seems more like giving ur opinon. but i guess it depends on how u say it, i guess...but its normal to feel jealous, or insecure...couples do that. espeically when u 2 have been together for a long period of time. but surely the guy has his own say and can speak for himself...? if he cant, maybe u should just ask him...

...not meaning to be off subject, but is that u in the pic? i simply adore those shoes! theyre so pretty! lol

you must be kidding. Did you really, seriously, have a guy telling you those things? Maybe you should go back to the 21st century because those guys from 500bc do you no good. You shouldn't do that, either.

On a side note, from your writings I think you like a guy who is a bit controlling. You seem to like to have a man who is a bit confident so you can simply fly around him.

About not being pretty enough, ask me again that question when you reach 23 :)

Thanks for the comment.  I know how you feel about that, I've done that  before and felt sh*tty about it. I don't really know what to tell you because I still get that way sometimes.

Christi<3

I think it's normak to be like that.
but some take action, others don't.
s yeah  i really donno.
iloveyoulotsx

I think youre feelings are normal... we all want a guy who is crazy about us and will stop drop and do what we want...You could almost say it a comfort zone...But be careful you def do not want to push him away... try being like OK well you wanna do this OK well lets meet up afterwards or hey I'm feeling **this way** while your out it would be nice to know your thinking about me (will u text me or w.e???) it might help because if you dont provide some room for him he might eventually feel suffocated...

And i think the way you talk to him about how you feel is good...you def dont want to forbid it so telling him hey i dont think you should or i feel this way if you do this or amgoing to feel this way lets him make that choice of what he wants to do about it not you...therefore you are not changing but telling him he cant, he is making that choice himself to change which is good. When girls start to say you CANNOT! thats not letthing him change for himself and then who knows if he will do it again or do it alter behind ur  back because u forbid it!!! SO i think that the way you are telling him is the best way you could

Its normal to feel jealous if u catch him looking at others...thats actually a sign that you def have feelings for him so dont push yourself away just be like hey wow i really like him or love him...Even if he doesnt admit it he is sure to feel the same way if he might accidently see u look over at a guy pass by... There is adiff from being like that guys hott and OMG I WANNA F him... im sure uve seen guys and been like hes good looking but that is its not like ooh i wanna takl to him or see him or date him its just thats simple hes cute...and then u  never think about it again bc its nto a big deal and it doesnt mean a thing...